Tuesday, October 1, 2019

Shelter From The Storm--Erev Rosh Hashana, 5780


Shelter From The Storm

Erev Rosh Hashana, 5780
Rabbi Jason Rosenberg

          “Peace unto you, and to your kingdom, your majesty.”
            Everywhere she went, people greeted the queen with these words. “Peace unto you, and to your kingdom, your majesty.” For her entire life, from the days before she even understood the words, everyone who saw her would say the same thing. “Peace unto you, and to your kingdom, your majesty.” Her advisors at court, foreign dignitaries, even common people in the street, when she was out walking, taking in the sights of the realm, people would sometimes wave, often smile, but always, always offer a heartfelt, “Peace unto you, and to your kingdom, your majesty.”
            It had been this way for generations. This is how the king or queen was always greeted. What better blessing, what fonder hope could there be? But, the truth was that this queen had never truly known peace. Oh, of course there had been moments of peace. But, true peace? Widespread peace? Enduring peace? No.
            There was always some neighboring nation which was rattling their sabers, or maybe starting a few skirmishes along the border, just testing to see how strong the kingdom was. And, there was always some province here or there which wasn't happy. Maybe they didn't have enough food that season, or maybe they thought their taxes were too high that year. The Queen was always having meetings with her advisors, discussing how to shore up this defense, or quell that unrest.
            It wasn't just with this queen, of course. She read her histories, and she knew that each of her ancestors had much the same story to tell. Some faced times of outright war or national disaster. Some lived in more tranquil times, but none had ever known complete peace. There hadn’t been a single day when there wasn’t a war, or a fight, or a struggle, somewhere in the realm. Not ever.
            The Queen was distressed. Everyone in the kingdom professed to love peace, but they were talking about a fantasy, a dream. How could you claim to love peace when you had never really seen it? Why would you keep wishing peace on each other when it seemed that peace would never come?
            Was peace even possible, she wondered? Could we even dream of a day when there would actually be full and complete peace in the land? The more history she read, and the more she looked at the world around her, the less the queen could conceive of it. She started to realize that she didn’t even really know what peace meant. She couldn’t even imagine what peace, true peace, would look like. She became obsessed with one, singular goal—to have, at the very least, an image, a vision of peace. To know what, exactly, she was striving for.
            She asked her advisors to try to help her—to show her, to imagine for her, what real peace would be. What the world would look like if everyone was at peace. No one really could do it. The queen started to despair—how can we pursue peace when there is always strife? How can we pursue peace when we can’t even imagine what it really looks like?
            Haunted by this notion, that she didn’t even understand, couldn’t even fully imagine peace, the queen started asking everyone, from all walks of life, to explain it. Teachers, scientists, religious leaders—none of them could. They all said that they could, but when pushed to actually come up with an answer...
            The queen couldn’t sleep. The queen couldn’t rest. She had been raised being taught that peace was the ultimate good, that peace was the standard by which she’d be judged, that peace was what was most needed in this world. But, now it seemed impossible. How could she bring what she couldn’t even dream of?
            So, desperate, she turned to the artists. She announced a contest throughout the land—the man or woman who could make a painting of peace, the person who could at least show, through art, what peace might really look like, might actually feel like, would be given riches behind her wildest dreams. There were no shortage of entries—every artist wanted to take a shot at making this wonderful, sacred work. And, of course, every artist wanted to take a shot at getting rich!
            Artist after artist, painting after painting, came through the queen’s court. “Peace unto you, and to your kingdom, your majesty,” they’d say as they showed off their creations. Oh, they were beautiful. The most vivid, lush, pastoral scenes, rendered with the finest skill. Rolling landscapes, covered in wildflowers, colors practically jumping off the canvas. Skies so blue they would bring a tear to a grown woman’s eye. Children, in many of them, playing, frolicking, laughing, as their parents beamed from afar. One had a musician, sitting on a rock, offering lullabies to lions and lambs, laying down together. Birds in silent, graceful flight. Sun drenched hammocks. Rolling, bubbling streams. Trees bearing fruit big enough to feed a world. Each painting more stunning than the last, but each one not quite right. Each one looked like an unattainable fantasy world, and so each one made the queen feel even more sure that, in the real world, we’re doomed to live without true peace.
            Then, when the queen was ready to give up hope, in walked an old lady. Wizened, stooped and frail. In her hand was a canvas covered in gray upon gray. “Peace unto you, and to your kingdom, your majesty,” as she revealed a painting unlike any the queen had yet seen. It was a painting of a storm-tossed shore. A moon was barely visible, covered as it was by the thick, gray storm clouds. Rain poured down, and wind churned up the sea into an angry assault on the shore. Waves raged and crashed into the cliffs, which almost seemed to shiver from the cold. There was steely misery in every inch of that painting.
            Except, for one spot. In the corner, tucked away, there was a warm glow of light. As the queen looked, she saw in that corner, wedged into a crevice in the cliff wall, a small cave, probably dug out by the force of the endless onslaught of tide. And, in that cave, a small fire. Huddled around the fire was a woman, cradling her baby. Their back to the sea, the baby saw only the warm flames, and the mother saw only the face of her darling babe, eyes lit up from the fire reflecting in them. Together, shielded and protected, they looked content. At peace.
            “Your majesty,” the old woman offered. “Peace is not found in a perfect world, for such a world has never existed, and it never will. There is always a storm raging, just outside our door. Peace, my queen, will only be found in a shelter from the storm.”
            “Peace unto you, my teacher,” said the queen. “Peace unto us all, as we take shelter from the storm.”

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